I had an interesting thought today. Self-evaluation, really … on things I think I suck at !!! or sucked at. probably still do. but a plausible first step to change is recognition of your errors. & fuck me, do i have some errors ?! there’s so many things I just look back and think …. fuck, that was pretty stupid of me. & I really feel so stupid … cause I should be able to adapt to situation better. but to be fair, I have little experience. I need time to absorb things in. but well time n circumstances are never quite so kind as to let me work at my own pace …. so I figure I should adapt. & lol I realise I could have done much better much better on so many occasions. as-per-my-previous-post I am a bit of a slow poke slow on the uptake. Really gotta change that. Some opportunities are not presented often enough to let them slide so easily. :’(…
I am a bit of a retard, really! lol
I am crippled by thoughts of you… but my mind never strays too far from them.
Nothing’s changed.
I’m not sure what’s going on. I feel empty inside. Outside as well. I spend most of my time not quite knowing where I’m going with this. Whatever this is. Apparently I shouldn’t be fooled by my emptiness. Apparently there’s so much room for happyness. (KASKADE song lol). Doesn’t seem like it. I’m still a loser. it’s funny what makes you feel happy in life, yo. it’s just funny.
I just had one of those moments where I wonder if it was all in my head.
… IF what was in your head ?
I don’t even know. Le sigh.
Nostalgia is a strange feeling. Somethings don’t seem real when you think back. They seem so far-fetched almost as if you mind is making an effort to deceive you. or you to deceive yourself.
I’m no good, yo. Not right now.
i’m weird, yo.
hahaha best thing I ever did in my life. Told a girl I love that I love her… ¬ retracted the statement. FUCK YEAHHH !! :D
I dislike small talk. Even with you. I prefer kissing you n playing your hair… holding your hand & lying next to you while we talk about the things that make life such an odd experience.. & drift further and further into more substantial conversation. I like things that make me feel close to you. I like drifting away in your presence… ironically into dreams of me & you. This is what I like.
